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The past week has been filled with mostly sleep…something for which I have always adored. I am a big believer in sleep and I don’t ever feel as if I have gotten enough. In my book, good sleep is never being awaken up by an alarm blaring! Getting up on my schedule and taking my time. Laying there just till my back is about to hurt from laying there so long!

But……this last week the amount of sleep I have had has been in  epic proportions…..the short of it is….I have been sick. Started with a cold and has become a full-blown “.…i feel like crap!” episode. About the time I thought I was passed it…BOOM back again!! This has really been a burden because when I don’t want to lay around and nap with a side of nap….constantly…all day….I DO! I got stuff to do…canvasses to paint…ideas swirling around my head. All I can muster up is taking a shower! And that is on a good day!

Why is it always the way? We always want what we can’t have…cold cruel world! These are the times that I think too much….hmmm,….” I sure wish I would take better care of myself”, then I ponder…” if I were to kick the bucket…do they (my family) even know how to do anything around here?” Of course my next thought is evil…..NO THEY DO NOT!!!….then I laugh with a laugh of satisfaction! Okay….I repent…it must be my dreaded sickness!

Brings up an important point….I have nearly everything running pretty smooth, all the bills automatic and such, but it is all the other things. I couldn’t even bring myself to look around the bathrooms…eeewwweee! Will they just become horders? It would at least give them a project! Possibly even an opportunity to get on television! At times like these, I am no better….I sure wish I had a “Hazel” to help out….a girl can dream!

Morbid as it is, it is comforting  knowing that I think I could die now and not regret. Sure I want to see if my younguns’ actually “turn out” and if the Downton Abbey drama continues to be the delicious romp that it is and what about world hunger…..do all those beauty pageant contestants ever solve that one? So many loose ends to be tied. Besides those important tidbits, I pretty much have all my scores settled. I owe no one, with the exception of gratitude and I have told those folks already!

Cover of "Sleepers"
Cover of Sleepers

The drama of our lives is never-ending and sometimes it would be nice to just close my eyes and not remember what all I have been thru (stole that line from the movie, Sleepers) a good line and really sums up the way we all feel some days. My dreaded sickness gets me in this feeling sorry for myself mode!

These days, while I am lying around pitiful and whining about how sick I am, watching sad movies and all the House Hunters (HGTV) I can find intermittently between my naps and all, I think how nice it would be to not remember…..but then I come back to real life and know that first of all, I would have to get better to die and if I weren’t around who would they blame all their troubles on……it is always the Mom’s fault, right!

Anyways…Mad Men comes back on in April and even though I am mad at MAD MEN for dragging the series out so long I still cant resist!! Yes, you have guessed it…I am pathetic…this “latch-key kid” who grew up in the ’70’s does live by the time schedule of television shows. I do better when I am not sick, I do not watch 24/7 but, I still keep abreast of it all. Television was my best friend way back when.

There is no real point today for all this thought-provoking chatter…just a chance for me to say once more…I hate colds!!!! Someday when my dreaded sickness is gone I will go back to fretting about even more silly things…..all in a days work!


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I wish I had……

I wish I had hugged my granny and papa more. I wish I had known the last days on our farm were the last days. I wish I had known the days would get so much shorter as I got older. I wish the words my sister would say to me about all those Cokes catching up to me wouldn’t hover in my head as well as my hips.

I wish I would have continued playing tennis after college. I wish I had been a better student. I wish I had the nerve to really be what I was meant to be. I wish I had paid more attention to my feet. I wish I had given much more thought to the clothes I wore during my 20’s.

I wish I had not cared so much about what people thought of me. I wish I were a better woman. I wish I could spare my kids the pain of failures and hard headedness. I wish the gravitational pull wouldn’t concentrate on what seems like only my body all the time. I wish I had a million dollars. (Keeping it real here, everyone wishes for that, I might as well say it out loud!)

I wish spring was the constant season until a month of fall and skip straight through to spring again. I wish I had a zillion Daisies all over my yard to keep me smiling. I wish the politicians would shut up and get something done for once.

I wish Downton Abbey would play everyday on PBS and not end and make us wait so long for new season, as well as Mad Men! Speaking of television shows, I wish Sandra would come back on Property Virgins and Dallas would come back sooner and all my guilty pleasure shows would stay only slightly crazy and not go full on nuts. I wish somethings would never change.

I wish my tooth socket would hurry up and heal for Petes’s sake! I wish I had a maid. I wish I had a maid. (So good I had to wish it twice.) I wish our children would find the best girlfriends/boyfriend for them and live in love the rest of their lives. (A momma can dream big ya know.)

I wish the weight would just drop right off like the ad claims it would. I wish I could travel to NYC and live for about a month in a brownstone in a beautiful part of town like on You’ve Got Mail. I wish my blog would be read by lots of people and eventually be on FRESH PRESSED!

I wish I could watch cool birds in my back yard. I miss the huge Woodpecker that visited us for a season back at our old house as well as the little Blue Bird that is like the one on Snow White. I nearly cried it was so sweet.

I wish I could eat lobster again, and since I am on that subject shrimp and crab legs. I wish they were in abundance and not so expensive and I could eat them all the time along with great salads and vegetables – grilled.

I wish I could see again a few of my old friends from my younger days and it would be the same. I wish I was all shiny and new again. I wish everyone could get the whole GOD thing and I wish I got it better. I wish I could see a butterfly everyday. I wish I had a million dollars. (Bears repeating!)

I wish my hair would not go gray ever and be light blond highlights naturally like it was when I lived outside which brings me to I wish I wasn’t such an indoor person. I wish red-hot jaw breakers weren’t oh so Cinnamon-y — too hot! I wish I could sing really good. I wish I had my own computer that no one else ever uses.

I wish I could go back in time and have some do-overs. I wish I had a cat that never sheds and just cuddled. I wish I had the good sense I have now way back when. I wish I could talk to my daddy and I wish with that one that I will see him in heaven.

I wish I could go to the carnival that came every summer to Cowan TN, it was the best one ever and I wish I could belly laugh again while riding the Himalayan with my sister Jan. I wish I had been in the cool kids group in high school and not so awkward. (I was on the cusp of that crowd, just barely even noticed but just almost there.) I wish my son’s TV didn’t play constantly even when he isn’t home. Ugh! (Gotta’ go up the steps and search for the controller which is impossible.) Which brings me to – I wish I had found a one story home this time!

I wish LOVE was seen as a verb all the time and we spoke it daily. I wish it wasn’t so hard to wake up every day. I wish my sister that was two years older had not died when she was a baby. I bet we are a lot alike! I wish friends weren’t so hard to come by.

I wish I had watched my weight do more than quadruple. (Should a paid more attention to that one!!!) I wish I could wear Levi’s and plain white shirts all the time. I wish stuff didn’t bug me so much with my inner me screaming out all the time in my head just like the episodes of Seinfeld when Elaine is trapped on the subway and the power goes off and the train stops and she is trapped and begins to talk to herself in her head. (I do that all the time, nerve-racking! 0

I wish so many wishes that it will have to be continued.

I wish I had more patience to continue now

‘Til next time – I hope!

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