I am reminded today the reason I started writing a blog, way back in the day a really sweet movie came out ( by Nora Ephron, no less) called Julie and Julia! (As I watched this movie I felt an urge to join the party of bloggers, for no real reason but just to say my peace! I’m not a particularly politically charged person, no matter what happens I have no control of that chaos!But I did feel I had something to say… to anyone who would listen( read), nothing very profound but at the least maybe a little funny, nonetheless here I am at least twenty years later( ugh I’m old) watching the same movie at home and I’m still wondering why?

What really struck me as to why I should write… is there an audience for such a thing? I assume most of the “people “ who follow me are Russian BOTS! No one has reached out to me after reading my oh so profound words to offer me a book deal, rarely do I even know anyone who actually breathes on this earth reads my words.. I get a few comments that I adore. You will never know what that means to those of us who send our heart out to the world… the darkness of space only to feel stunned when we get noticed. I’m not so confident that I expect it, but I do feel the need to speak all the same, if only for my own sake.

Although, I have a tiny bit of ego that at few and far between times has been allowed to shine. There have been a few occasions that I have been spotlighted, without my asking for it, noticed for just where I happen to be at the time, I have thought it strange that I have ended up in the newspaper several times( never for an arrest, my mother woulda killed me! ) But even so I was noticed and really isn’t that all most of us want .. is to be noticed every now and again?

Once in high school in the nineteen hundreds ( oh Lort!) I was in the newspaper with my friend Sonya Gannon at I think a 4H fair or something, I know it happened just not sure what for… although I do remember the hideous haircut I had! Then once, years later I joined in the fun for a local Arts and Crafts fair, I had a booth and brought all my paintings that were on old antique windows, with the help of my kids and two wonderful friends, Robin and Tina Tallent and as I sat and painted which was the most fun ever, they ran the store and the local paper did a front page article on the festival with me on the front! ( a huge picture of me actually) eeek! Then move on in years until we moved back to my hometown area and on a fluke I answered a call on the newly found Facebook and wrote a tiny piece on the town square in Murfreesboro,TN and how lovely it was to be old enough to know what real small town life was… this somehow prompted a local reporter to do an article for the paper( again) about this hometown girl who moved away and came back… not very interesting actually but I think my honoring of my hometown was what stuck. The best blessing was I had a few old friends tell me that their parents read it and said they remembered that scrawny kid who road her banana bike all over the neighborhood… and some of those friends came to my mothers funeral. Such a blessing to me, she was remembered by them, her kindness and beauty. Also there was a lady who commented in the first year who had a sick husband who lived in a hospital bed in the living room and she was there with him.. this lady read my words and it gave her a little giggle; a little peace and able to reminisce about time that has long passed. That lady will never know how that blessed me to know she read .. like most folks who I’ll never know that read. It has been a blessing to me and if for no other reason this is the why.

I have always written for my self.. therapy i suppose so this is contribution to that mental clarity for myself.. if any one reads and gets a laugh or sigh that’s cool too..

Just a last thought.. if the worlds should collide and Jesus really does part the sky and haul us to heaven which I truly believe will happen( don’t laugh, people think there are aliens so this Jesus story is not so far fetched) the great catching away of the saints… the rapture of the church… please know that my time here on the earth has been good. I had a strong family, raised well and blessed with a great husband and beautiful children. I have lived a wonderful life and my hope is that you all know Jesus.